it took five weeks to fall for you and five months to let you go. i think i still loved you even after those months went by, i was just trying my best to deny it. the funny thing about love is, just when you think you have fallen out of it, you see that person on the street and feel your heart do somersaults and backflips and you want to feel angry at him or her for smashing your heart into pieces but all you think about is how nice it would be to hold their hand again and you realize that you’re still in it deep as shit. but you have to dig yourself out, because that love will fucking ruin you, more than it already has. it will fucking tear you apart.
I can’t write about loving you because you’ve been gone so long, I forget the feeling. And your words don’t kiss quite the same as your lips, but they’re all I have these days.
I am trying to see things in perspective. My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter chocolate chip bagel. I know she cannot have this, because chocolate makes dogs very sick. My dog does not understand this. She pouts and wraps herself around my leg like a scarf and purrs and tries to convince me to give her just a tiny bit. When I do not give in, she eventually gives up and lays in the corner, under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dog’s. When I want something with my whole being, and the universe withholds it from me, I hope the universe thinks to herself: "Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, but she does not understand how it will hurt.
Get on the plane, get the train,
Walk 300 miles.
Get to her front door and tell her
“I know this is crazy
But I need you now.”
Our lives are too short to always be sensible,
Get the girl.
Distance makes no difference if your eyes light up when she laughs.
Every day I struggle between “I wanna look good naked” and “treat yo self.”
It’s the year 2032 and i still don’t know what the hell Story of my Life is about. What walls? Take who home? What the fuck is frozen?
There’s nothing harder
than putting yourself
back together every morning